Today was a very sad day in my house: Sam flew back home to England :[ I told myself that I would not cry because it just makes the time we do have together sad. It didn't help that I found out his flight was earlier than I thought, but what could I do? I pretty much cried all afternoon and pushed him away whenever he went to hug me. I was in denial that he was leaving so soon after getting used to having him around all the time. I am REALLY going to miss waking up and seeing him and knowing he is in the house somewhere. He also opened my car door for me Every Single Time. I joked to him in the past about the whole driving thing because he can't drive here so I'm carting us around. So he makes it a point to open it for me :] even if I open it myself and already in the seat, he grabs me out of the car, closes the door, then reopens it for me :] Love that he does that <3 I was a wreck at the airport. I kept asking him why he wasn't crying, which made me cry even more. Once I gave him a last kiss, I turned around, put my hand over my mouth, and just cried. Really cried, not just silently crying... ugh starting to get teary eyed thinking about it. It's going to be hard to pass by the guest room for the next few days. He won't be in there and his things are gone. He left some shirts and random things for me, and that really helps :] only 165 more days until I can see him again, and we both have school and work. We will be busy which will help, just not looking forward to the whole "When are we going to get to talk next" type of thing. We both know this is what we need to do and we can't change anything. If we could, things would have changed a long time ago. Just gotta stick to it knowing we will see each other again :]

On a brighter note, I will have more time to work on my blog! My blog design was ready when Sam flew in, so I haven't had time (or for the matter, didn't want to spend time on this thing). But now, I will be able to post more! This will be more than just an online diary. I want to be more crafty and try more things. Like recipes, holiday decor, clothes, basically just DIY stuff that actually works. The whole online diary thing will still be here, but I don't want my blog to be just my thoughts. Exciting!

Going to try to get some sleep. Will be hard falling asleep by myself (he would stay in my room until I fell asleep then went back to his room), but I have a routine. I fall asleep to the TV on a timer, so I will just do that. I am tracking his flight right now and he is in Canada, about 6 hours and 20 more minutes more to go. Poor guy :[ I hope his flight is going smoothly with all the storms in his flight path!

Will start to post more regularly now, so stay tuned! I want to post about 2-3 times a week :]

-Alex